It was apparent this year that we were thirsty for this time. We have each been experiencing (separately) an unsettling in our souls, and a yearning to see God with fresh eyes. When we mustered the courage to tell one another our inner-most secrets, it was freeing to know that God was taking us through the same waters together. Isn’t it amazing how that works?
This past Sunday, while listening to a (new to us) pastor teach, he said,
“God does not call us to fear – uncomfortable, maybe – but He does not call us to fear.”
That resonated with me right down to my toes. My stomach lurched and my goose pimples appeared.
During an intentional conversation with you a few weeks back, my husband shared with us our call to be missionaries right where we are. This past year was not a year where our lives reflected what our hearts’ desired – to love God and to love others … with passion!
Mark says we have grown stagnant. I say we have put ourselves in a box. Together we agree that we have become far too comfortable.
Right now, I feel like I’m clawing at the box, begging it to open. I’m treading water, and I’m growing far too weary – only the tip of my nose remains out of water, and I long to breathe.
For the first time in my life, I can identify fully with David when he wrote,
“I stretch out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.” ~Psalm 143:6
“O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.” Psalm 63:1
However, I fail to identify with him further when he says in verse 2,
“So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory.”
I don’t get that. I haven’t seen God’s power and glory the way David is describing. But I think that this year will be that year.
Mark and I are creating some pretty uncomfortable plans. Some of them voluntarily and some of them are completely the Lord’s pursuit of us. The truth is … we want to see God’s power. We want to experience His glory.
The pastor this past week quoted a movie line that went something like this,
“Twenty seconds of insane courage can change your life.”
To step outside your comfort zone, to take a chance of someone disagreeing, to take a chance on something that you see no possible way it will work, to fall flat on your face, and to love people with all you have is … uncomfortable. It’s hard. But I want to do it. I want you to do it.
So will you go with me this year? Will you take a chance with me? Will you purpose to pray for the impossible with me? Will you purpose to be uncomfortable? Will you let it go? Come with me. Let’s stand stark naked in front of our heavenly Father and say, Clothe me! Change me! Make me uncomfortable … for your glory!
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