This post is written by contributing writer, Brenda from Triple Braided.
Right when I think I have silenced the Martha within me, she comes back shaming me into something else that I must be doing. Her words always sound so official as she quotes statistics and tells real-life stories of what just might happen if I don’t listen to her. This time, she’s whispering to me about the movement to “go green.” Everywhere I turn she is there – quoting and reminding and shaming.
Maybe I’m running the water too long.
Should I really take a bath tonight after taking a shower this morning?
Oh, I used a whole paper towel to dry my hands.
I forgot my reusable grocery bags – again!
Why did I get disposable eating utensils with my carry out?
Maybe I should try cloth diapers, too.
How do you make reusable cloths to mop with again?
The hormones in that chicken are going to make us sick.
Where do I take the old magazines?
I turn on the computer, open up Google Reader, and there sit hundreds of blog posts written by Martha giving me ideas to add to my list.
Don’t get me wrong, I like Martha. My dream is to be Martha. Martha points my mind to see the world the way it is supposed to be – tidy, efficient, wholesome, and serving. Looking not only to one’s self for gratification and met needs, but also looking to others and the world as a whole to meet their needs. Martha helps me be a better steward. Martha helps me be more disciplined. Martha points me to a place outside of myself.
And I know that Jesus loves Martha just as much as He loves Mary.
But even Martha was not able to resist the enemy’s scheme to divert her attention away from her Supplier – the One who gave her all that she needed to serve. Martha fell into the same trap that Eve fell into years earlier in that garden. The trap of listening to the enemy’s words – God is not enough, You must do more, You must take control. She began to see her identity through herself instead of through the eyes of Jesus.
I can assume that feelings of shame, guilt, and fear began to drive Martha, instead of service out of love for her Savior, because those are the feelings that drive me.
Right now they are driving me to try to join the movement to live a “greener” lifestyle. But instead of feeling at rest, I feel inadequate and resentful.
Living a greener lifestyle is a part of God’s plan for us. We are called to be good stewards of our earth, our resources, and our bodies. The more knowledge we gain about living a more healthful lifestyle, the more we should strive to incorporate into our lives.
But at the same time, we also must remember the words of Jesus.
“‘Martha, Martha,’ the Lord answered, ‘you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.’” Luke 10:41-42
I am Martha – upset and worried about many things. Behind the mask of my perfectionism I have to do all of it – every facet of living a green lifestyle – or else there still remains a gap. Instead of relying on “the one thing that is needed” – Jesus – I work and strive under my human parameters. Then I am left with shame, guilt, and fear – none of which are from God.
Above all else, God is in control of all things of this earth and on this earth. As we become more knowledgeable and better stewards of what He has given us, we must also remember that we are not in control. We want to be better stewards out of gratitude to a God who gave us such a beautiful place to call home for the time being, not in an effort to try to save ourselves or our world. That we cannot do, and it is not our responsibility to try.
Have you joined the “green movement”? Has it left you feeling peaceful or full of inadequacy? We would love to hear from you in the comments!
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